rose in bloom - WEIGHING UP THE CONSEQUENCES!
Weighing up the consequences!
There's no doubt I'm one of those people who has had said about them “she's a late bloomer!” Whether that's a good or a bad thing, I can't say.
What I can say however is I have learned lessons every step of the way.
I've been buffeted around by circumstances and by people.
I've been walked on, put “down”, over-looked, ignored, berated, discriminated against, jostled about, pushed out of the way.
I've had to pick myself up and dust myself down so many times I’ve lost count.
I've been humiliated and embarrassed; ridiculed and treated as one BIG joke.
But you know what, the laugh is on me.
- For I've grown.
- In stature, and in confidence.
I can look other big people who are suffering from discrimination right in the eye and say: ”I know where you're coming from”.
What’s more I can tell them, “and where you are going is entirely up to you”.
For we are accountable to ourselves when you think about it.
The only thing I regret, when I start thinking about things, is that no one took the time to tell me I was OK as I was, before I had to go through many years of negative self-talk and humiliating and demeaning experiences to find myself.
There was no need for me to turn myself inside out in order to meet other people’s expectations, because if they had all the answers, then they would have solved all the problems of the world and its peoples. And they haven't!
Perhaps I could say I wasted a lot of my precious time and subjected my feelings and emotions to countless episodes of negativism, when I could have faced the situation a lot earlier.
But that's not quite right! If I had been able to face the situation back then, then I wouldn't have learned all the lessons I have now accumulated, and which I can draw from to advise and counsel others.
So its wrong to suggest that maybe I wasted time. The time was taken up in experiencing and experimenting and learning from those experiences and experiments. It was taken up in fine- tuning my feelings and emotions. It was taken up in learning to look at others through more confident and compassionate eyes, and in so doing being able to look at myself from different perspectives. Oh, yes, those years of learning and study have been very worthwhile.
Yet what if I hadn't learned those lessons? Quite frankly, I shudder to think where I would be. I'd most certainly be the loser, I know that.
For I'm now in control.
Of me.
I can do anything I want to,
I can set any goal I want to set,
I can achieve anything I want to achieve,
I can succeed,
I can increase my understanding and awareness
of who I am and who I can become.
I can discover what I am, and what I can be.
I can reach for the stars.
Anything is possible.
And it can be the same for you!
By the time I was 50, I had gained self-respect; self-esteem, self-confidence and a wonderful man, but that’s another story
...... Rosemary
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