SERENDIPITY SANCTUARY

 

  Weighing up the consequences! There's no doubt I'm one of those people who has had said about them   “she's a late bloomer!” Whether that's a good or a bad thing, I can't say. What I can say however is I have learned lessons every step of the way.  I've been buffeted around by circumstances and by people.  I've been walked on, put “down”, over-looked, ignored, berated, discriminated against, jostled about, pushed out of the way.  I've had to pick myself up and dust myself down so many times I’ve lost count.  I've been humiliated and embarrassed; ridiculed and treated as one BIG joke.                                    But you know what, the laugh is on me. For I've grown.  In stature, and in confidence.  I can look other big people who are suffering from discrimination right in the eye and say: ”I know where you're ...

  What's next? It's a very interesting journey, this “trying to find yourself” . More especially when you try to find the real person hidden under that camouflage that people call “excess weight ” or “obesity ”. Mind you, those two descriptions are now included in my bag of unwanted words, and I do my best to ignore them. Yet I've used them here, because many women will still be hearing these words said about them, and even if they are honest, sometimes will even say them against and about themselves. We must not be unkind to the essence of our womanhood - the real person inside. We can even learn to look at ourselves as a landscape painting - foreground, background and every cuddly bit in between! There's quite enough discrimination and negativity out there in the world against people of size, without us adding weight to the problem!  Excuse the pun, but that's what it is. The world, in spite of all the anger and hostility and ridicule and ignorance displayed by ot...

Something Really Dramatic I’d been admiring the beautiful manicures of many women for some time and this was another area where I had convinced myself that because of my size I wasn’t worth being “indulged ” in such a way. What foolishness. It was time for me to take stock of the situation and either slip back into believing I was of not much value, or else steadily striving forward and doing everything possible to no only enhance my body to my best ability but to do things that would please me, To no longer take notice of people who would say “don’t be silly ” or “ don’t bother ”, but simply because I felt it was about time I saw myself as I truly am, I focussed on expanding my confidence. That included my appearance and more especially my “feelings” about myself. My hands and feet are no longer young. They’ve changed somewhat over the years. Perhaps my hands show signs of neglect over the years, but they are an essential part of me and need to be pampered a little as well. The same ...